我同她的短信 (2017-10-23 15:18)

周日4-9点。她在画室，他又来找茬，我真的觉得很累，就想躲开。带Rixi外出也有6个多英里，她疲倦地睡着。这个时候是属于我的时光。

我，Dad told me that you have a boy that you trust? Someone, you can tell everything about?
聪，Not Everything, but I trust arnav with some stuff
我，like what?
聪，like when I feel depressed and stuff?
我，depressed because of me and dad?
聪，a little bit, and grades and pointlessness of life and existential crisis
我，I am sorry that you cannot talk to me. I thought I am your bestie
聪，I do just don't want to be a burden, don't want to make you worry, do whatever you need to do is so
我，You are NEVER a burden. I feel you really do not want to repair the relationship with Dad.
聪，are you sure? It's pointless.
我，Without you, my life is pointless
聪，I'm depressed and annoying 90% of the time and I'm not good at anything and I'm not anything to brag about
我，Why you think it is pointless?
聪，There is nothing I want from him


后来她就不再跟我短信了，我想她是更愿意去画画吧。那是她喜欢的渡过时光的方式。接她的时候，我问她，What do you think you can get from me? 她说，good advice, care.

不能再给她压力了。高中的学业已经很重了。她想成为all honors student，是真正的那种honor students，不想成为中庸的。